Keep Calm and Carry On

Its the new trend. 

I see it everywhere. 

There are tons of parodys with it.

I love it.

It didn't start at Target.

Did you know that:  

During World War II in the UK, the British government produced posters that read ‘keep calm and carry on’ in order to keep morale up as much as possible during the war. The posters were never printed since the Germans never invaded the UK but the design was discovered earlier this decade, leading to a wide spread fascination with this slogan.

I, however, like this one today,

Its Been Awhile

I haven't been in the mood for writing typing or thinking. 

Its been awhile.

I don't like to talk about it and its not something that I like to think about. 

I have tachycardia.

Tachycardia comes from the Greek words tachys (rapid or accelerated) and kardia (of the heart). Tachycardia typically refers to a heart rate that exceeds the normal range for a resting heart rate (heart rate in an inactive or sleeping individual). It can be dangerous depending on the speed and type of rhythm.

It is something that is always on my mind. 

I have been hospitalized three times in two years with nothing abnormal. I just have a rapid heart rate. 

My last attack came on at night. I woke up and my heart rate was 130bpm. When it happened a second night in a row, I decided that I needed to go to the doctor again. I was prescribed a heart monitor. I wore it for 48 hours and had NO attacks. Figures.

They have done every test three times now. I am perfectly healthy. By heart just likes to freak out now and then. It is incredibly uncomfortable and scares me while its happening. But I need to learn to live with it and hope that I grow out of it. 

It is very common in women my age to have this and grow out of it. For now, they are going to test me for mitral valve prolapse.  

 Hopefully it isn't this. They will put me back on beta blockers. I hate them. I wake up in the middle of the night feeling paralyzed!! Eeeck!

I just have to remember to keep calm and carry on.